looking into the future...

These days, I don't really have the urge to blog. Maybe it's because of the mood, or maybe it's because that my life is kinda boring, I don't know. Anyway, I just can't seem to find anything to write anymore. Nothing interesting is happening in life, and there's nothing much to blog about my work.

Lately, many of my ex-coursemates are writing actively in their friendster blogs. Almost all of them wrote about the good ol' times in university, and how much they miss that kind of life. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one who thought university life was a blast. Right now, I'm just happy to have some of the best memories a man can have.

So, fast forward to my current life. I can safely say that I have no problems adapting to my current job (heck, I've been working part time here for the past 8 years), and along the way learning many part and parcels of the business. Good thing is, I've been given oppoturnities to explore new things and ideas, something I am quite fond of doing.

I am now having thoughts of just getting on with life, and scrap the further studies plan. I don't know, this is the hardest decision of my life.

I do not want to be financially dependent on my family for the next few years of my life. I mean, I'm already 23 this year. When I finish postgrad studies I'll be like, maybe 26 or 27. And that is such an old age to begin my career. A career in biotech, which is like non-existent in the country now. There are just too many risks taking this path and I don't have a clue where it'll lead me.

On the other hand, the job I'm having now is secure. I see so much potential in this field and there are plenty of ways to expand the business. Which is a nice thing for the company and for myself too.

I'm imagining the two of myself taking on these two different paths, and in 10 years time I see one with a PhD degree standing in front of the lecture hall giving lessons to a bunch of monkeys who are only concerned whether you'll give them photostated notes later, and another one who have established himself in the industry and financially secure (if he is yet to get a girlfriend, haha...).

I know, I have an entire lifetime to work for money, but for the time being I am very concerned about being financially secure. I don't want to stretch out my hand and ask for money till I'm 27. At 27 some of my friends may even be married already and started families of their own.

I wish to move out and live independently, have a steady career and stable life before I reach 30. And to do that, I would have to be financially equipped.

Dang, just what the hell should I do...