Sunday, May 11, 2008

content...

You know, sometimes you really wonder if you're experiencing difference phases in life after being alive for a quarter of a century. Yeah, yeah, I know I'm not old enough to talk philosophy, but sometimes, at times, I begin to feel more and more content with whatever I have now in my life, or anything that may come in the future.

There has always been times when I felt that I do not make enough money to live a comfortable life. Call me materialistic, or anything you wish, but that's what makes the world spin, no? I want to, I need to, be financially-independent if I'm being serious in buying my own home to stay with my beloved one, and to take care of my family with ease, while at the same time making enough money to travel to places I have never been to, and perhaps going for some occasional fine-dinings if my financial situation permits.

I'd live extremely frugal at times in recent years, to the extent that I thought I can save a couple of bucks if I have bread for lunch instead of a decent chicken rice with iced tea. At times I'm very satisfied, but there will be times where I wonder if I'm doing enough.

But then again, from time to time, I'd have moments where I sit back to think, long and thoroughly that maybe, perhaps maybe, sometimes money isn't everything. I'd count my blessings to have a proper roof over my head now. I'd appreciate myself if I can spend a little more to have some decent dinner outings with my girlfriend. I would spend a little to pamper myself and the people surrounding me, just for the sake of spending. During these moments, I would think that there aren't more important things in life than having a good time, and enjoying life to the fullest in slow-motion.

I know it won't be long before I go full throttle in making money again, but it's always during phases like these I would tend to sit back and relax, and think about what's best in life. And a cup of nice hot coffee on a Sunday afternoon, with nothing else to worry about, it's as though the best thing that can happen to me at the moment.

Sometimes, after taking a couple of steps forward, you need to take one step backward just to have a wider view of the road ahead of you.

Sometimes, it keeps you sane.

Other times, it keeps you happy too. I'm content to be happy, at the moment.

5 comments:

WY Kam 甘永元 said...

hey mate,

glad to see you seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. If you don't enjoy the moment, and don't enjoy life at it is, what's left to be enjoyed?

:) miss our Philosophical chat...about life!

I am living a mirror of your life now, though i m lavishing on my family/loved ones a little too much. hahaha.

Livingmonolith said...

yeah, i guess we can afford to take a step back once in a while, i'm pretty relaxed at the time being, but i know next month i'm going back to business as usual, so enjoying the moment now...:)

when coming back here to m'sia to pay us pals a visit?

WY Kam 甘永元 said...

might pop back in sept, but i ll keep u updated.;)

Livingmonolith said...

well, let me know on anything, life's pretty boring right now, i'm waiting for next month to start, and heck i'll be busy as a bee...;)

forbidden_lover said...

i guess every one who just start work will face the same dilemma. feel want to spend some money to pamper yourself, at the same time, want to save as much money as possible.

according to gong zi's concept of zhong yong, every thing need to be moderate.

I spent a lot on my family too. haha..nic know that the most.

by cLiu.