Tuesday, May 30, 2006

crossroads of life...

Okay, so I'll officially begin work on 1st of June. Not what I expected, but you can never expect what's ahead in life.

I'm sorta in a dilemma. See, my family would really like if I stayed in the family business line, so that there will be someone taking care of the business when they retire. I can understand that. My father went through a lot to establish his business, which he is very proud of, and he definitely would be disappointed to see his hard work falling into others' hands. My brother got lucky, he opted to leave and got a job of his own, leaving me to deal with all these. And my parents don't trust my sister to handle the business, and I can see why.

Myself, on the other hand, would prefer to further my studies in what I'm interested in, a postgraduate research in biotechnology. Or at least that's what I think I'm interested in. My supervisor advised me to further my studies overseas, preferably in UK or US. Mind you, those are not really cheap options. To do that, I would desperately need a scholarship to ease the financial burden. Besides, I don't really want to keep stretching out my hands (I need to stop using the word 'hand') to receive allowance from my parents anymore.

Of course, by continuing studies, I am pushing myself into a corner, right into the academic path. A lecturer or something related. I'm not too sure if that's what I want to be. Or can be. I definitely do not want to end up as a scientist trapped in the lab 24/7 like my final university year, but I can't think of any career paths after this, yet.

Another thing is that, my parents hope that, even if I managed to obtain a scholarship to further my studies, I would still come back after that and rejoin the business. If this is what I'll be doing, what's the point of doing my postgrad studies?

I don't know if I'm suitable for the business world. I've never imagined myself in this position. But now that I've graduated, things like these come into the picture naturally, and they're torturing my mind.

Am I the only one having these kind of problems, or everyone feels the same when they graduate?

Sunday, May 28, 2006

myteam vs malaysia...

...is totally crap.

I don't understand. The only thing I learn from this match is that both teams sucked. I can't even remember why I turned on the tv to watch the match in the first place.

Well, at least the national team won 2-1. I can't imagine Shebby celebrating a victory with his ragtag kampung MyTeam. These amateurs played like... amateurs. They can't head the ball, pass, hold or dribble, and their keeper can't make a save if the opposition's shot isn't aimed at him. And I think there were like 10 players who were strechered off the field, and the keeper cramped in the first 30 minutes by just standing in the penalty box.

And the national team? Seeing them struggling against a bunch of amateurs proved what we feared all these while: that local sports are hopeless.

Damn, I need to go sleep now.

Friday, May 26, 2006

xmen the last stand...

Damn, I seriously hate the latest installment of X-Men movies.

How can they possibly kill off Cyclops just like that?! It's like, only 15 minutes from the start and he's dead, even his bloody ruby specs have longer screen time than that guy. What a pity. I don't even know how exactly he died, this really irritates me.

And Prof X, dispersing into thin air? Man, this is totally not what I wanted to watch. I wanna see all the good guys fight side by side, not getting killed off one by one!!!

I guess bringing in so many characters into a 2-hour movie really have its down side. No one shines throughout the movie (other than Wolverine and Storm, but then again these 2 are the main characters), and they don't look or act like those characters in the comic books I grew up reading.

I am so disappointed.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

a survey to waste time...

Don't feel like typing a a lengthy post, do I did a survey instead. Hahahaha, will blog normally some time soon.


1. Male friend: Several of them (You guys know who you are)

2. Female friend: Several of them too, hahaha...

3. Vacation: Trip to Kuala Gula. Man, life in a fishing village is so darn relaxing...


1. Time of day: 2 pm (Yawn, feels like taking a nap)

2. Day of the week: Monday blues

3. Food: Some vege. I hate most vege.

4. Memory: Too bad to remember...


1. Person you saw: My sis.

2. Talked to on the phone: Chang Wang, talking about booking tickets for 'Da Vinci Code', woohoo!!!

3. Hugged: Yean, during last week's farewell dinner.

4. Text: Yean. Damn, she still hasn't replied after 6 bloody hours.

5. messaged over friendster : Kam.


1. What are you doing now? : Doing this stupid survey, hahaha...

2. Wearing : T-shirt and shorts.

3. Better than yesterday : About the same.


1. Is: Gonna more interesting than today.

2. Got any plans: Going back to uni to look for a lecturer and ask her why my name is missing from the results' list.

3. Goal: Succeed in finding my lecturer, who's often missing from her office.

4. Dislikes about tomorrow : Possibility of failing to find my lecturer.


1. Number : 3, 27

2. Song : At the Beginning (Damn old song)

3. Color : Black and blue, my favorite hue

4. Season : Um, it's either rainy or sunny around here...


1. Missing someone : A lot as a matter of fact, I'm missing my coursemates' company and laughter around me...

2. Mood : So so.

3. Wanting : To enjoy my last 2 weeks of holiday before starting work. Travel travel travel!!!


I am a cuddler - Wahahahaha, how false...

I am a morning person - FALSE!

I am a perfectionist - False.

I am an only child - False.

I am currently in my pajamas - False.

I am currently pregnant - What the hell... false.

I am currently single - True.

I am currently suffering from a broken heart - False.

I am left handed - False.

I am addicted to friendster - Some true in it. Only some...

I am online 24/7- False.

I am very shy around the opposite gender - Depends on what kind of people, really.

I bite my nails - True, my friends, very true.

I can be paranoid at times - True.

I currently have a crush on someone - False. But I feel like crushing somebody...

I currently regret something that I have done - False.

When I get mad I curse frequently - False.

I enjoy country music - False.

I enjoy jazz music - False.

I enjoy smoothies - Partly true.

I enjoy talking on the phone - False.

I have a cell phone - True.

I have a hard time paying attention at school - False.

I have a hidden talent - True true!!! hahaha...

I have a lot to learn - Perhaps true...

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal - Plenty there...

I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" guy/girl - Yeah, true I guess...

I have all my grandparents - False. Damn, I have bloody lot of grandparents ok?

I have at least one brother and/or sister - True.

I have been told that I am smart - And also handsome, cool, clever, and everything nice, hahahaha...

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor - Wickedly true.

I have broken a bone - False.

I have changed a diaper - False.

I have changed a lot over the past year - If you're talking about my hair, well...

I have done something illegal - True, sigh...

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color - False.

I have had major/minor surgery - True, when I was really young even I couldn't remember it myself. Was told about it by my mother.

I have killed another person - Would it sound too fake if I answered true?

I have had my hair cut within the last week - False.

I have had the cops called on me - False.

Saturday, May 06, 2006

hey there...

...guess who had just just finished studying? ; )

Time to take a rest, have some fun, think a while, before I get back to blogging.