happy mother's day

My mom fell sick today. So sick that it makes me sick.

For as long as I can remember, I've never seen my mother getting sick, let alone becoming so ill she can't even stand up without fainting. She has been complaining of a bad back for the past week, and the last few days her health's getting worse. Stomachaches, dizziness, low blood pressure, vomitting, all these showing that her health's faltering.

She has always been the pillar of strength to me, looking so able and strong in managing the home and her work for the last few years. I guess I am the only one who didn't realize age is really catching up with her. She's 53 this year, and had she been any luckier, she's retired and enjoying life now.

Times like these I wished that I have never made the decision to rent a place with my friends and stayed at home to look after my mother instead. I should've brought an umbrella for her when she was getting off the car in the middle of a heavy rain. I should've done more chores at home instead of going out with friends. I should've accompanied her for breakfasts more often. I should have, I should have... all the things I should have done but I didn't.

Thank goodness she felt all better after throwing up in the clinic just now. At least she can now walk without feeling dizzy or fainting.

And now I can finally rest, after a chaotic day with only 2 hours of sleep since yesterday morning.

Btw, it may seem a bit too early, but I guess there aren't any better moments than right now, so Mom, Happy Mother's Day and I love you. I promise I'll spend more time with you and Dad and yadda yadda yadda whoever's related to me in one way or another.